What could this be?

...

Hmm.

Another fruit of boredom, from Marz.


I'm hesitant to post anything regarding the fire that ravaged the Faculty Center. Much has been said about it in everyone else's blogs, and I guess those would suffice. But I realize that I need to vent about it, just as everyone else has done.

I feel bad. According to the photos Sir Joey posted, it was really, really horrible -- Ma'am Aguila's cubicle was completely obliterated. Sarah's artworks have turned into ash too. And the Gawad Supremo board -- it was supposed to be unveiled THIS WEEK.

Looks like that latter bit won't happen now.

But the good thing is, no one got hurt (it was a predawn fire, after all). And that it didn't spread to the entire building. And that periodicals are moved to next week because of this -- heaven knows I need to study Chem.

I still have questions on my mind, though I'd rather not post them now. Maybe I'll find the answers to these questions when I get back.

Let me share what I felt this weekend through a metaphor.

There was a person who had to leave for another country. And not just leave -- that person was migrating, never to come back. And then there was this person she didn't want to leave behind -- someone who was almost like a brother to her. The girl never had an older brother, although the guy acted exactly like one to her.

That person helped her through all of her migration woes -- he gave her advice on all sorts of things, from the clothes that she should bring, even which airline she should take.

The last thing he did for her was to drive her to the airport. The girl didn't want to leave her "brother", but she knew that in the end, she had to because it was the thing to do. As she started walking towards the terminal, he said, "Hey, you're going to be on your own now. You can call me if you need to, but you have to learn to rely on yourself too."

I realize that this is how I felt just the past weekend. It's as though someone drove me to the airport and dropped me off. And right now, it feels like I'm still in the terminal, passing through immigration authorities, waiting for my flight -- since I'm mulling things over and I still haven't really decided what I'll do.

I just hope I don't miss the flight.

Astig. Gumagana webmessenger sa computer ko sa CS. :D

Now if somebody would go online now...

This past weekend had me thinking about life, love, and whatnot, thanks to a certain incident last Friday night. (Which bothered me the whole night, causing me to not sleep soundly.)

I wish I could blame all my problems on PMS or something, but really, it's all my fault. And lately, I've been letting these problems of mine just stay put, without me doing anything productive about it -- I've been ranting, but that's it.

I realize that these can't stay that way forever. I need to do something about it, unless I want to be troubled by my conscience for the rest of my life. Just like Chemistry. Reactions only take place if there is a catalyst. And this time, I have to be that catalyst. I have to do something. Not doing anything is not only unfair for me, it's also unfair for the person/s involved.

So, yeah. I guess I have to take action soon. Maybe not today, but when I'm finally sure of which path to take -- as of now, I'm still carefully thinking about what to do, and the possible consequences.

And for this, I thank someone for waking me up from this state of misery.

:D

The people you love the most are also the people you end up hurting the most.

Wala lang. Just sharing. And how true.

Narealize ko kung gaano siya katotoo last night. Pati how much he means to me.

How goddamn true.


Hell week na.

Andami ko pang gagawin, to be honest -- may LT sa Trig and SS sa Monday, may portfolio entry for SS na due sa Monday rin... tapos perio week na rin. Tapos hindi ko pa alam isusulat ko sa SS portfolio entry ko kasi, to be honest, immortality doesn't sound that fascinating for me.

I wouldn't want to live forever, especially with a life like what I'm living right now. Especially kung ako lang yung ganun. I'd hate to see the people dear to me die, while I just stay on since I can't even die. Parang for some reason, death seems so... fascinating and intriguing.

Pero may ibang ways naman to be immortal, and not in the literal sense. Like being known as a famous/infamous person. Kung papapiliin ako kung paano ko gusto maging "immortal", edi ganun na. Kaysa naman mabuhay ako forever. At least pag ganun, even if I die, people will still know what I did -- that I changed the world. Dream ko kasi talaga yun e.

...

Tae. Halos nagawa ko na SS entry ko dun ah. Ayusin ko na lang. XD


Matagal-tagal na rin akong di umiiyak. Grade school pa ata yung last time na umiyak talaga ako e.

So medyo nagulat ako kahapon nung naluha ako habang nagrerelease ng sama ng loob sa flagpole area. Mahirap kasi akong paiyakin, so may ibig sabihin talaga pag napaluha ako kahit kaunti lang.

Hmm.

Kailangan ko sigurong pag-isipan talaga yung susunod kong gagawin. Hindi ko na kaya yung walang nangyayari e.

Sana makatulong ang papalapit nang retreat.

Sana lang.

Like, hi mga friends!! Guess who made epal dito sa super duper over mega-bonggacious blog ni sisteraka Marz ketch! Like, si Jil lang naman, noh? Like, it's so kaka. You know? Nakakatuwa. :D :D :D

Like, sir made sabi na we should like make tingin on our blogs. Like, para daw to make bilang bilang how many na yung like, our entries noh.

BOMBA.
o.o

Like, yah. It's SO like saya kaya dito. Like, si Jess, his face becomes pula whenever we make asar him about his..

AC CHIX.

Oshah ba. xDD

So, I just had my interviews for the Singapore exchange program thing, and... yeah. I'm dead nervous. It's something I really want badly, after all.

The interview with Atty. Perez wasn't much, since she already interviewed me for India (Gigi got in!) and asked me some stuff regarding the Singapore exchange program back then too, so it really wasn't much of an interview. Ma'am Salac, on the other hand... well, let's just say at least I think I can pay for my transpo. Haha. And I really do hope my score's good, especially in the essay portion. *cough*

With Ma'am Bawagan... gah. I waited for her in the faculty center, and when she saw me, she was acting like she wanted to get away. Hahaha. Well, I've always known that Ma'am was hyper, so.. yeah. Haha. And then she asked me if I could breathe fire, or walk on a tightrope, just to entertain the Singaporeans. Of course, I'm no magician, nor am I willing to risk my LIFE for those obviously dangerous acts. =))

Oh and I already saw our nameplate thing for the Gawad Supremo board. Whee. My name's gonna be immortalized on the walls of Pisay. =)) Owyeah.

And... yeah. Haha. I listen to our Physics teacher now. Energy, work, and power are so much easier than momentum. Whee.

Haha. Now, I'm in the lib, passing time -- we're already dismissed. And Kit's writing a blog entry beside me. Hardcore nya. He typed his entry without looking at the keyboard. Yeah. I'm not used to this keyboard kasi. :))

And I hope Ateneo wins Game 2. Please, let it be so.

Andandand. Hahaha. Someone smells so good today. X_x

Okay.

I feel violated. Sort of.

Dammit.

I think amma go completely NR over guys now.

Hahahaha.

I laugh at my misfortune.

(I know this is vague, but, what the heck.)

...

And yeah. I'm bored.

Seriously now. Suharto? D: O_o

And.. JoJo? O_o

...

Damn.

Super makikinig na ako sa Physics. At sa STR. Pati na rin sa Math. Well, nakikinig naman talaga ako sa Math -- mahina lang talaga ako dun.

Tatapusin ko na rin Bio notes ko. Magbabasa ulit ako ng English. Titinuan ko ang Chem LT ko para maging 1.25 na ako.

Ieedit ko pa yung Filipino short story ko. Gusto ko ng uno.

Teka lang. Bakit ba ako nagbabagong buhay?

Bumabagsak na ako, #@&^*!

Woohoo!

I did end up watching the Ateneo - La Salle game live today. Catch is, I had to watch it on the La Salle side, since my dad was rooting for La Salle, and he's the one who got us tickets, so... meh.

It felt odd, cheering for the blue side in a sea of people clad in green, but it was fun. The game itself was a bit blah -- Chris Tiu scored only two points (Al-Hussaini scored 31 effin points, man -- almost half of their team's score), and the lead only changed once.

But actually being there -- man, it's so different compared to only watching it on TV. Whenever one of the pep squads would start a cheer, the other side would retaliate -- really fun. Like, Ateneo would go, "Fight, fight, blue and white! Go, go, Ateneo, sis-boom-bah!", then La Salle would go, "Go, La Salle. Go, La Salle! Go, La Salle, La Salle, La Salle!" Haha. So fun and primal. :))

But, yeah, I'm happy I'm finally able to cross one item off my Bucket List. :P

Haha. Wala lang.

Nadiscover ko na pag nagsusulat ako ng mas mahirap na program in JavaScript, dapat ginagawa ko muna siya in C++, tapos iconvert na lang ang syntax sa JavaScript.

Tulad ng prime number program. Imbes na cin ang gamit, prompt. Tapos alert or document.write pag cout. Haha.

Ewan ko lang. Siguro kasi pag C++, mas madali mong nalalaman kung saan error sa code mo.

Hmm.

...

Ma-try nga mag-aral ng Java. =))

Labels: geekiness

I've always despised Physics. Seriously. I don't get how some people are fascinated by momentum, energy, and other stuff. I guess, the fact that I'm not really a mathematically-inclined person helps -- Physics, for me, is just too damn mathematical.

But I've never despised that subject as much as I do now.

You see, we had our long test last Monday. I thought it was going to be alright -- I'd studied for it, after all. But when I took it, one thing had me scared out of my wits -- the fact that it was right minus wrong.

It'd be fine if the items under that portion were only worth one point each. BUT NO. They were freaking worth two points. Imagine, if you got one item wrong, you won't just lose two points. You'll lose another one because you answered it wrong. And if you didn't even bother to answer it, you won't lose a point. Dammit.

I don't get the logic of that test. I mean, okay, sure, I know it could probably reduce the incidence of guessing, and make us actually read the items for once. But the thing is, most of the choices seem plausible enough to answer the question, so what's the point?

It doesn't help that majority of the test was like that, and that we didn't really get enough practice -- we only have two-three items for homework everytime, and they were the really simple ones too.

If we had two more long tests to make up for this epic failure, fine. But we only have one long test left, and I'm not sure if I'll be able to understand the lesson -- as far as I'm concerned, Physics is the most sleep-inducing class, and with all due respect, I don't think our teacher explains these concepts well. We just keep on deriving and deriving formulas until you don't know what exactly you're doing.

Hay. Epic fail.

PS. I just realized that I've dreamt of typing this entry a few nights ago. :O

Ang hirap pala magsulat ng kwento kung hindi mo alam saan ka huhugot ng inspirasyon.

Lalo na't ngayon, hindi talaga ako nabubuhay. Nag-eexist lang ako, pero hindi nabubuhay.

Paano na kaya ako ngayon?

Ewan. Bahala na si Batman.

I've always had vivid dreams. I don't know exactly why, but this simple fact has proven to be very useful. Like my dream this morning, for instance.

For some strange and unexplained reason, we (Magnesium) were having Ramayana practice in the auditorium.  And it was all cool and well-done and had kick-ass props and crap, unlike what actually happened to our play. And then for some odd reason, someone just recited a line from that speech we have to memorize for English.

When I woke up, I tried reciting the speech, or at least what I've memorized of it. And strangely enough, it was accurate. I even checked my copy of the speech to see if I was right.

Freaky, I know.

But that wasn't the only time that my having vivid dreams has proved to be useful. Call me weird, but I've had dreams that actually occur in real life. And they're not just mere parallelisms of the events about to transpire.
Every single detail, from the clothes, down to the dialogue, even the time of day and location, in my dreams -- they're the exact same details in my real-life events.

I've had this incident once -- back in first year, I dreamt that our class was having Tech Prep in the ASTB exhibit hall, playing around with this tube-like thing, inserting a marble down it and letting it slide.

And that same day, it happened. Exactly like that. Even the exact location in the ASTB hall, the weather condition -- it was all bloody accurate.

I've had more incidents like this, but the strange thing is, I cannot predict which of my dreams will actually happen. I've noticed, though, if that dream was rather mundane and ordinary, there's a chance it will happen. I don't dream about highly emotional events. I don't dream about huge catastrophes.

But still. It's rather odd.

See that?

*points to sidebar*

Yeah, a cbox! Haha. Just tag ahead. :>

*bounces away*

That, my friend, is exactly what I feel today. I mean, come on. Who wouldn't feel that way after a grueling Math 4 activity/game, a sleep-inducing Bio lecture, a formal theme in English that had a question that reminded me awfully of SS2 *shudders*, and a SURPRISE nomenclature drill in Chem? Not to mention a lab activity in Physics, and that damned homework as well.

*sighs*

On the other hand, I was able to finish this new layout. Yay! I hated the third one -- it was ugly. I actually had three color schemes in mind for this layout, but a friend told me to go for this color scheme, so, yeah.

Anyway. Enough geekiness. Haha.

...

You know, I'd better go ahead and sleep. Or read.

Haha. Forty-three minutes left before I take part 1 of that effin' test.

And... come on.

To be honest, I didn't want to be a scientist when I first entered this school -- I wanted to be a lawyer, just like my dad. Now, I'm dreaming of becoming either a biologist or a chemist -- and probably the first one in our clan. Aren't they happy with that?

...


I don't think so.

Haha.

On other stuff, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, STELLEY! >:D<

And, happy birthday to my dad! ILY DAD. >:D<

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Haha. Enough ranting -- dismissal was fun, albeit in a... gago way. (Excuse my French -- it's the most apt word I can think of.)

Bood Sci! Math 8! Blab Tech! SocSci 2.5! =))

Haha. Insanity, indeed.

AND. Haha. May nakakuha ng maraming chocolate today.... sino kaya yun? =)) HAHAHA.

Bleh. I feel hyper. =))

Ideally, I should be sleeping by now -- the apparent lack of homework (Physics HW is a piece of cake -- thank God we're under Ma'am Q!), plus my lack of willingness to study for that Chem LT tomorrow are the reasons why. Instead, I'm here, typing away, at 11:00 PM.

Go me. Haha.

I'm actually very sleepy now, but I'm trying to resist the urge. Why? Wala lang. There's something I still need to do, but I can't seem to think of ways how to do it. Ugh.

Plus, I'm letting my download of iTunes 8 finish. Haha.

On the other hand, I really have to begin with that Filipino short story. Dammit. I suck at writing, I can't think of a plot, and my grasp of the Filipino language, especially when it comes to vocabulary, is a bit shaky at best.

And to think Sir JoGon's gonna check our first drafts tomorrow. I think. T_T

...yeah.

So, I guess this is good night for now.


PS. I <3 FoodSci. And that chocolate custard. <3

Nasa Comsci kami ngayon.

Haha.

(And yes, I am bored. D:)

Oh, and yay for JavaScript. (Because I know I'm such a geek. Sheesh.)

I'll make kwento about FoodSci and lunch later, if I'm in the mood.

Masaya. Na ewan.

Isabel. =)) Grabe. Gah. I'm so weird, I know. (And this is why I'm in the library now, and not... you know.)

Haha. Tapos chem practice blah. Haha. Yay nakuha ko yung J sa practice problems ni Ma'am Butaran. :D

Tapos nag-FLAMES si Kat. Eew. I hate playing that game. So gross. Seriously. So cheesy, and it feels so... I dunno. Desperate? Maybe.

Ang pangit pa ng results. =)) Panalo lang yung kay Alvin. =))

Haha.

Lunch pa rin ako ngayon. Nasa class na sila.

Bleh.

Rant.

Ugh. Nasty.

Our homeroom adviser didn't show up at all for today's homeroom.

I know I should get used to his... style, but puh-leaze. He has report cards to collect.

I miss having a decent homeroom adviser.


Rave.

Triple breaks own, huge time.

Especially when spent with friends. MgG, you rock. Seriously.

And. Hooray for 4 bonus quiz points! :D


Love.

Dammit.

I think... I hope not.

Please. Don't let it be.


Hate.

I just don't get it.

I haven't felt this emo in ages... and now I'm feeling it.

It's as though the waves are crashing down on me while I'm on a surfboard. Again.

I dunno -- it feels like there's something that's definitely lacking in my life. It feels so dull without that something. Monotonous. Monochromatic. Flat. Plain. Boring.

I want a rainbow.

Pleasepleaseplease come. Whoever/whatever you may be.

How... fun.

Imagine this. You had one week of freedom -- one week without homework, without long tests or quizzes, without almost anything.

Then, boom.

School rears its ugly head in the form of requirements, to be submitted on the first school day after that oh-so glorious week.

How heavenly, right?

Yeah.

I guess I better go finish that blasted Chem homework now. And that SS homework too.

Hay, salamat. Nagawa ko rin.

Sana tuloy-tuloy na.

Sana lang.

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Dammit. May pasok na ulit sa Monday.

Ayoko pa. Wala pa ako sa mood.

Siguro kasi... ewan ko. Mamimiss ko yung free time. :| Tsaka yung matinong pagkain.

Hay.

Tsaka... bonding sessions. Basta. Blah.

Hmm.

Sige.

I'm just so freaking tired.

...

*yawns*

I'll just cozy up to that new book I got until I fall asleep. After all, it's another busy day tomorrow.

Darn.

Labels: stress

That was the semi-official battlecry of the White house.

Yeah, it's already Humanities Week.

And that same cheer helped us win the Tug-O-War. Haha. No, seriously. Our movements were in sync with our cheer, which, I guess, must've helped a lot.

And during the last round -- the final round, we already fell, but we still managed to bring home the bacon. Woo. \m/ I don't care about the after-effects of the game (rope burn! T_T), what mattered was that we rocked.

This is why I already LOVE Mg. Woo. :D Kaya natin yan! :D

Andandand. During the Talent Show Teaser, maaaan. Isabel, you totally rock my socks. Seriously. You were AMAZING. You really, really have talent. :D No wonder you're leading the count now. Galiiiing. >:D<

VOTE FOR ISABEL! :D

The only thing I hated was... bleh. The COCCs. I know they're just doing their job, but come on. You come off as a bit too harsh. Heck, there was this one CO that was too strict -- I say this because I've observed that person while lounging around our assigned area. D: Rawr.

And I didn't get to join the tree-planting since I was cooped up at the War Room. Haha. Anlamiiiig. XD Tapos daming ideas rin. Wheeee. :D Tapos bonding rin. HAHAHA.

And practice... well, last Saturday's was better. But then, yeah, we're all exhausted now, compared to then, so it's fine. I just hope we can really pull it off.

Kaya yan.

On another note, KKKwiz bukas. :|

Here's to luck, and to wishing that things will turn out nicely for me.

EDIT// Links to other INHUMANITIES Day 1 Posts here (kasi sabi ni Ada):
John-John (III-K)
Ada (III - K)
Oona (III - K)

Meet the girl on the wall. 16. Pisay. Junior. Food Sci. Magnesium. Dahlia. Garnet. Cranky, quirky, whiny, self-centered. A bit nutty and out of control. Ever-so-slight introvert. Hyper oddball. Frustrated writer. Self-confessed history and web design geek. Math EPIC!failure. Loves too much. Period. Blue and white!fanatic. Audiophile. Has a soft spot for insanely cute things, especially Baby Eeyore (^_^) and WALL-E. Oh, and she likes stuffed toys. And books.

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• Mg2010 = <3
• Whoaaaa.
• maybe going stag would be awesome after all.
• Stuckstuckstuck
• lost it.
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• November, November.
• hey.
• clearly unfocused.

Ada.
Cam.
Cess.
Dan.
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Dion.
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Faj.
Fidel.
Gigi.
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Jaime.
Jaymari.
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Ma'am Paz.
Magnesium2010.
Marwin.
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